Epiphany #2

Tuesday, March 20, 2018

It's been too long for me to be away from this blog. 
Honestly, I don't really know if I am too occupied with all the routines (that is practically the new one), or my writing sense is fading due to unknown reasons.

Right now I'm sitting in front of my office's computer, listening to Pojok Akustik playlist on Spotify, and trying so hard to change whatever thoughts floating in my mind into words. If my post doesn't make any sense, please forgive me, okay?

Well, I've been living in Makassar since January. I moved to the city after I got accepted as CPNS in Lembaga Administrasi Negara (LAN) RI. It was my own choice to be placed in this city tho. My biggest consideration is that my SO (aka Fadli) will comeback to his hometown in Kendari (Southeast Sulawesi) after he finishes his study. Some of you might think that it's a bit crazy for me to leave my hometown like permanently when you all know that he is not officially tied to me. It's fine tho, I'm gonna explain the reason behind it all in another post, but I can assure you that something is going to happen this year.

It's never easy to leave, especially if you think you have found your home in the same place you're about to leave. I remember that I cried everyday for about two weeks before my departure. I cried in my room, I cried when Fadli took me for an evening ride exploring Jogja, I cried when I hug my mom and dad in the airport right before I entered the waiting room. I've been living in Java since the first day I was born (Well technically I lived in Madura for 10 years but Madura is still a part of Java, right?), and I've been living near to anyone I can run into whenever I need them. Living in Makassar freaked me out, because I thought I will have no one, and I will have to face everything alone. 

But it turns out just fine. I'm slowly consider Makassar as my new home, thanks to my whole CPNS squad in PKP2A II LAN Makassar, and thanks to Fadli, for keeping his promise to take care of me. 

12 person who will always ask each other where to have lunch when it's still 10 AM

I am currently enjoying my life here. Not that I can forget Jogjakarta tho. The city still lingers in my mind, and I need to comeback next year to finish my study that is currently paused. I miss everything, but fresh start is not a bad thing as well. So yeah, wish me luck to start another journey in the Eastern Hemisphere of  Indonesia, and I hope I get my energy back to share everything in this blog!


Love,
-f


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  1. hope you are well and get married, My story was not good at all, 2 years and break. although that was occur 10 years ago, but clear as a sky in my mind. Alhamdulillah Allah give me a present, with my family. Now my story become more excite, marvelous. alhamdulilah

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    1. Life gets better, Mas. Do good and everything good will come to us :)

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