I think it's not too late for me to write this post (just a day :D). So here I am, and all I want to do is just say something unimportant, and it is .......................................... (drum rolls)
to my beloved, strongest, greatest, and the most wonderful woman I ever met
Yeah, the final day has come. The study report has been given and..................................................... (drum rolls)
I GOT 79 IN CINEMATOGRAPHY
My friend said, "79 is not a matter, you got the second rank!"
Be the second rank with 79 score is NOT COOL AT ALL dude -__________-
I just really want the graphic design lesson back!
I call my self as "the victim of the system", because by the removal of GD lesson, I have to be transferred to cinematography and I got that sucks score.
Mari kita awali posting ini dengan sedikit menguap berteriak.
Huaaaaaaaaaah!!!!!!!!! Astaghfirullah hal adziiiiiiiim................
Saya cuma bisa teriak dalem hati, istighfar yang banyak, soalnya hati ini rasanya pengen meledak. Bener-bener ngga kuat sama tekanan yang saya rasain, dan bener-bener muntab sama keadaan. Gimana engga, hari ini tanggal 16 Desember 2011, dan besok (17 Desember 2011.red) adalah saatnya saya terima raport. Demi apa, saya galau. Galau banget. I'm afraid to face tomorrow (duileh bahasanya).
Apa kabar nilai-nilai saya?? Naik atau turunkah?? Dapet peringkat berapa saya kali ini?? Gimana reaksi orang tua saya setelah ngebaca raport saya besok?? Oh God, those things totally drive me crazy >.<
Abis rapotan besok, apa kabar SNMPTN undangan?? Masukkah saya ke 19 dari 26 siswa di kelas saya dan jadi orang beruntung yang dapet jatah SNMPTN undangan?? Abis itu, apa saya bisa langsung lolos SNMPTN undangan dan akhirnya masuk ke PTN dan jurusan impian saya?? Ampun, pikiran2 itu mulai bikin saya dtress, dan mungkin sebentar lagi rambut saya mulai rontok -_-
Abis SNMPTN undangan, siap-siap say hello ke UN. 4 hari penuh perjuangan, yang nantinya bakal jadi penentuan masa depan saya. Gimana nilai-nilai saya nantinya?? Bisa bikin bangga orang tua nggak?? yang paling penting LULUS NGGAK????
Itu, tentang masa depan saya. Yang sangat bikin saya galau bin stress setengah idup. Bukan berarti saya ngga yakin sama kemampuan saya, tapi kaaaan -______- udah ah ga usah dilanjutin, semakin galau saya jadinya.
Holla, my name is
Fira, and I am not a terrorist a 12 grader. Yeah, I’m a 12 grader now.
Underlined it and bold it. Remembering that I’m a 12 grader kinda makes me feel
a little bit awkward, okay not just a bit but totally awkward.
The time runs
fastly,eh? Till I don’t realize that I’ll face one of the most important and the
most influential stage in my whole life. Yeah, what I’m thinking now is just
about how will my national examination score be, and how will I get to the
university. All the thoughts related to those two things are totally stressed
me up, absolutely driving me insane -_-
The truth is I
worry about my study passions which haven’t came back yet. I haven’t tried to
study harder, repeated the 10 and 11 grader’s lesson, and tried to do as many
as possible question. The laziness greet me when I open the first page of my
book, and they keep accompany me till I fall asleep or they make me do any
other useless thing (I mean like reading comics, texting, tweeting, updating
fb, and so many sh*tty things I usually do in my study time). I know that those
things will give me a very bad effect for my NE, but I just can’t prevent
myself of doing it (Mom, dad, I’m sorry).
What I am really afraid of is making my parents disappointed (again) with me. I don't want to repeat my 10 grader's mistake which was totally change my life, it made me lose my father's trust. I finally can make it back after I got the 2nd parallel rank in the 2nd semester of 11 grader. It was such a hard struggle I ever did -_- I try as strong as I can to keep my father's trust, but will I ruin it again?? The only thing I can do is try and do my best, make the NE and university entrance as my priority, and forget everything that has no relations to it.
Just a "GANBATTE KUDASAI" i scream deep in my heart, start to countdown to April 16, 2012, when the NE will be held, and keep on studying and praying hard. Wish me luck :)